MANTHAN

Moment 2: Again the graduation time and this time moving back to Jammu for graduation. My stay in Pune lasted for just 2 months and being ambitious i didn’t want to remain with whatever i had got. The small stay helped me to generate my interests in engineering and more importantly I got in touch with some of my pre-final year seniors- Nalin from Computers, Ashwani Sharma from Mechanical, Pratap Ganjoo from Electronics and Anil Bhat from instrumentation. I shared very good rapport with all of these guys and often used to visit them for frequent help and guidance. I never knew my meeting with Nalin will have some other hidden context in it. Nevertheless I was going great guns in whatever I had got and was trying to assimilate as much as possible. During this time I appeared for my midterm exams and successfully cleared all the subjects getting AC (All Clear-engineering lingo for passing all the subjects ). I was getting used to it when i was bound to commit another mistake. I had appea...

The title may be inspired from Chetan Bhagat's bestselling novel but the fact of the matter is that this aptly summarises my new post. They say time and tide wait for no man and I definitely stand an illustration to this maxim. Mistakes or may be simply things where I should have taken decision from my mind’s viewpoint and not from heart’s perspective, the circumstances where in I should have trusted my instincts and not my emotions. The moments where in I should have resorted to some confrontation rather than subduing to them. So what were the moments, the circumstances which had this bearing on my life? Probably this post might help me in catharsis and encourage me to do the things differently next time. Moment 1: My graduation time and the decision to do my graduation from my home town. I had studied pretty hard for the higher secondary with the aim to be in merit. My luck ditched me here by 10 marks and I could not make it. But I scored pretty decent marks (90 plus PCM). I had...

Last couple of days I got few shockers more- infact they have become a part of my learning curve now. Actually I had myself understood the worldly matters and was aware about the need for no expectations in life but at the end of the day I am human and having the urge to expect something or other.And the moment there are expectations there are heart breaks and sadness. Best policy to observe,hence, is "no expectations, no shocks". Probably it is the impact of ones karma that has a bearing on these expectations...tending to be bit philosophical now. Philosophy apart- thanks to all those friends who joined me directly/indirectly last week. Thanks to even those who were not there. God Bless and take care

“I can’t please everyone”. This is what a nearest friend of mine conveyed to me today. “ I have my own principles, ethics and values. Let me stand by them.” He shouted at me. This made me think that probably I don’t possess any ethics, any values and probably that is correct. I don’t know what ethics are. I don’t have any idea of principles and yes even values are missing. The continued analysis of my current state of mind shows that it is probably because of these things missing. No defensive attitude but I think my only ethics , principles and values are to find ways by which I can make other people happy and I am happy doing that. Although that has given me shivers more than satisfaction yet I believe in The Highest Majesty and His powers which bestow me with this temperament . Only request to Him is please give me less shivers as I can’t handle this cold anymore now.

Once I met Ms Take and eagerly I asked “ why do you happen so often”. She smiled and said "Correct it". I was confused but could not understand the hidden context. Again I encountered her and again I put forward the same query. She again smiled and said “Correct it , it is getting late”. Again I could not get the cue and moved on without understanding what is the agenda. Ms Take never left me and still I came across her. I said angrily” why the f*** you not leaving me. She retorted and said “ I cant leave you now. Ask the second one. I am the impact of her”. I asked the second the reason. She said the answer is with the first one. Angrily with lot of discontent I asked the first one the reason and the reply was with again a smile. The reply was a learning for me. This is what she said” I always happen come what may. It is the responsibility of the men to help dodge me. If he does save himself from me I would never lead to any others. But if he fails in keeping me in control I...