Moment 2: Again the graduation time and this time moving back to Jammu for graduation.
My stay in Pune lasted for just 2 months and being ambitious i didn’t want to remain with whatever i had got. The small stay helped me to generate my interests in engineering and more importantly I got in touch with some of my pre-final year seniors- Nalin from Computers, Ashwani Sharma from Mechanical, Pratap Ganjoo from Electronics and Anil Bhat from instrumentation. I shared very good rapport with all of these guys and often used to visit them for frequent help and guidance. I never knew my meeting with Nalin will have some other hidden context in it. Nevertheless I was going great guns in whatever I had got and was trying to assimilate as much as possible. During this time I appeared for my midterm exams and successfully cleared all the subjects getting AC (All Clear-engineering lingo for passing all the subjects ). I was getting used to it when i was bound to commit another mistake. I had appeared for my CET-Common Entrance Test in my home state and results of the same poured in the month of Sept’04. I was allocated Mahant Bachittar Singh College of Engg and I don’t know from where I quit DY Patil for this newly established college. I was making a blunder and nobody was there to guide except for my cousin Dr Sujit Raina who had indeed cautioned me about it but only after i had committed the same. The idea behind this was to fulfil my dad’s ambition of having a medico professional from the family. This logic never went through me but nevertheless I agreed with the sole aim to fulfil my family ambition. That year I joined engineering in disguise for my father’s dream. I tried but i knew i was not made for it so lost the big battle by just 5 marks, a heartbreak indeed. I was shattered and this infact had a bad impact on my mind. I had also appeared again for engineering CET and I was allocated REC-Regional Enngineering College-Tirchy( now NIT- Tirchy- probably the best college for any engineering graduate after IITs in the country). The only tradeoff was the specialisation was Civil and me moron just let it go in vain. I now understand what blunders i committed in my life. Probably this was the biggest blunder so far and me stupid never understood it. Shattered , Disturbed and Destroyed
My stay in Pune lasted for just 2 months and being ambitious i didn’t want to remain with whatever i had got. The small stay helped me to generate my interests in engineering and more importantly I got in touch with some of my pre-final year seniors- Nalin from Computers, Ashwani Sharma from Mechanical, Pratap Ganjoo from Electronics and Anil Bhat from instrumentation. I shared very good rapport with all of these guys and often used to visit them for frequent help and guidance. I never knew my meeting with Nalin will have some other hidden context in it. Nevertheless I was going great guns in whatever I had got and was trying to assimilate as much as possible. During this time I appeared for my midterm exams and successfully cleared all the subjects getting AC (All Clear-engineering lingo for passing all the subjects ). I was getting used to it when i was bound to commit another mistake. I had appeared for my CET-Common Entrance Test in my home state and results of the same poured in the month of Sept’04. I was allocated Mahant Bachittar Singh College of Engg and I don’t know from where I quit DY Patil for this newly established college. I was making a blunder and nobody was there to guide except for my cousin Dr Sujit Raina who had indeed cautioned me about it but only after i had committed the same. The idea behind this was to fulfil my dad’s ambition of having a medico professional from the family. This logic never went through me but nevertheless I agreed with the sole aim to fulfil my family ambition. That year I joined engineering in disguise for my father’s dream. I tried but i knew i was not made for it so lost the big battle by just 5 marks, a heartbreak indeed. I was shattered and this infact had a bad impact on my mind. I had also appeared again for engineering CET and I was allocated REC-Regional Enngineering College-Tirchy( now NIT- Tirchy- probably the best college for any engineering graduate after IITs in the country). The only tradeoff was the specialisation was Civil and me moron just let it go in vain. I now understand what blunders i committed in my life. Probably this was the biggest blunder so far and me stupid never understood it. Shattered , Disturbed and Destroyed
Moment 3: Leaving Satyam in 2009
Whatever mistakes I committed on course to my graduation, I wanted to rectify them enroute my post- graduation. And this time there was no ifs and no buts as I joined K J Somaiya for my MBA, a fine college in Mumbai. I decided to put all my past in back burner and work tirelessly for my new project. I did almost everything right and got placed with Satyam Computers, India’s 4th largest software services company. I was satisfied for the first time in my life because I had achieved what i wanted. I was working my ass out in Satyam and was also getting the due credit for the same. I was getting fruits for my hard work for the first time and was on the 9th cloud. In 2nd half of 2008 we started sensing something wrong with company as our confirmation got delayed by 2 months. And as the doom had to stuck Satyam scam hit the 40k employees of the company. At the same time in my quest to fulfil my father’s dream I had appeared in State Bank examination and this time I made it through. Now the situation that had arisen was complementary. On one hand Satyam was wobbling with scam and on other hand I got through State Bank. Sensing insecurity in career I made this switch. I quit Satyam sensing insecurity even when I knew that I was the safest person in Satyam. I could not convince my parents about it although i had a support of my big brother like cousin Vinod Raina . In fact even he had tried a lot to convince my dad but when there is lowness in atmosphere the slimmest smile cant help. And as my third blunder of life had to happen I quit Satyam with heavy heart. I cried with myself but there was no one to listen and see my tears. After this erroneous judgement, my mind went into the state of shock and what followed were a lot of decisions on my personal front which still have a bearing on me at present. I don’t know what will be the intensity of this blunder and how soon I can correct it, only time will tell me.
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